it’s my Life!

Where can you find a place

ripe with abundance of growth

yet remain its rustic allure and ambiance.

Where can you experience a place

oozing with peculiar vibrance

that radiates beyond the senses.

Where can you discover a place

rich with history and culture that

that draws your heart to magnify its character.

Where can you explore a place

teeming with lushness of nature

its bounty bound to captivate one’s interest.

Where else, but in the city

where life is a feeling of relaxation

amidst pressures and hustles of existence

a place wondrously called

“the city of gentle people.”

                                               - written March 25, 2008

Happy New Year!
It is year 2008
Year of the Rat.

As always
everyone would be talking about
new year’s resolution,
wish list for 2008,
predictions,
and so on…

But,
the question
What is it all about?

If you ask a billion people in this
planet, you might also get a billion
different answers or a million common
answer to that or a thousand who
doesn’t care at all. People have
different set of priorities, different
line of thinking and what else but
different lives. That is why our
outlook varies deeply.

And for this incandescent soul
that’s posting this bulletin;

New Year is about a new beginning
just like birth, baptism, marriage,
graduation and the like…
A new chance for ourselves to look
behind the past year of how we did.
Much like assessing what is there to
face forward to with all the more
hope. And welcome the year that
unfolded with a new resolution or
renewed belief to be better to
our self, to people around us and most
especially to God in Heaven.  To whom
we place our continued trust and
confidence in this journey we called
Life.

To everyone,
Happy New Year!
And thanks to all my friends and
families who never cease to show
their presence in my life.
Thank you!

- written January 2008

As the saying goes, “the only constant in this world is change.”  True, everyday we go through different set of changes in our lives.  Change in decision or opinion, change in attitude or style, change - our clothes, our hair, our perfume, etc…  Everyday we subjected ourselves to different kinds of changes consciously or unconsciously.

But, the one thing we can never change is the past.  The only thing we could do to correct the past is making sure our actions and decisions wouldn’t lead us to the same situation as the past.  We can never turn back and change whatever mistakes and consequential actions we did and change the course of the future.  We are traversing a path leading us on to the future.  The path that we have passed through is like an invisible road behind us.

The movies 13 Going on 30 and The Lakehouse have both similar idea of taking in a man’s hand the destiny suitable and ideal for him/her.  And in doing it, defy the most undefiable thing of all which is time.  In movies, the writer’s vivid imagination could take him to possibilities only in the world of the big screen takes in to place and will take place.  As for us, reality may bite extremely hard but we can never take the fact that “it is life!”  Everything that we went through is highly dependent on the course of actions, decisions and indecisions, and in particular the convictions we hold.

So it is but appropriate to have a purpose in every decision we take and recognize the fact that whatever it may lead us to, it is but fitting to accept it with arms stretch and with fervor in persistence.

- written January 2008

     No matter how rough my life had been lately utterly speaking this year, I get up everyday full of hope for a brighter and fulfilling day. Ironic as it may sound but I do.

     Today, I got up and reported to work highly enthusiastic about a very sinister feeling of floating back and forth between reality and fantasy. Wearing pedals along with collared top paired with my bamboo-heeled-like stiletto (w/c amazed everyone for how it resembled like a twig much like "kagingking" Hehehe).

     Cheerfully I went on doing my routine at work. To make my short story shorter, as I was walking along Perdices Street, I had this feeling that something’s going to happen. I just felt it but I paid no attention to it. And then crossing the street between Lee plaza and Jollibee, my sandal gave up on me! Its strap that wrap around my feet gave out! My goodness I’m in the middle of street! I felt everybody looked at me! I gazed at no one.

      Stricken and with awful feeling of embarrassment, I hurriedly picked my sandal and walked barefoot while having the other pair still on. Walked to the other side and hailed for a pedicab hastily. Add dismay to embarrassment, I run for the pedicab in my hand the infamous sandal since the cab cannot pick up commuters on where I was standing. Ahhhhh…. so much for today, I want to melt! God this is so much for a day! I could feel all pairs of eyes were on me. Maybe laughing or somehow are wondering what happened to that girl who was walking confidently just a while ago. Hehehe.. Her poise was smashed! Hehehe..

     For those who know the spot, can you just imagine the embarrassment knowing how congested that area is and how it is teeming with a lot of people. In my opinion the busiest spot (where you could see endless shoppers, an everyday scene where you doubt what’s the stat about Filipinos in great economic crisis) in the commercial district of Dumaguete.

     To recount that a few days ago, I also tripped off this area right along the busy pathwalk at Jollibee in my sneakers. Imagine in my sneakers! The path wasn’t slippery, in fact it is rough. Tsk! tsk! Everybody looked coz I loudly uttered "Aray ko po!" My sneakers was in the mood for slides maybe. Hehehe. Right now, the tingling pain on my knee is annoying me, the memento I had but was thankful my knee wasn’t fractured or dislocated from such incident.

     As I recounted those moments, though I was engulfed with total embarrassment I only smiled with delight and said to myself, "maybe it is God’s way of making me feel am human and that I could only smile even though my knee was gashed and my cheeks were red with embarrassment."

     All through it all, I could only… He He He He He He.

                                                                       - written December 2007

It was one rainy day and another interlude of a dampened spirit lamenting over a brisk fluidity of time. suddenly a streak of sunshine streamlined over the horizon and gently overflows it with luminousity and radiance that resonates eternity. what was once a shady afternoon, now transformed into a flush spectacle of bliss. it was consuming and takes a lot of strength not to radiate together with it. slowly and magistically it was overwhelming and charmed every inch of humanity like it was there long before it had even become apparent. it melted away the jaded world of cynicism and blanketed everything with utmost mirth and gladness. it sailed away all the melancholies and made it a new beginning of possibilities. yes, possibilities of serendipitous events that seemed destined by fate. how skeptical was once believed on fate yet it was altered and thus, believed so it’s possible.

but, how invigorating it had lustered that’s how invigorating it had subdued like it hadn’t been there at all. the agony it brought is tormenting every waking minute for i have come to love the whimsy world that enveloped me in a fleeting moment. Tried hard to find it and hold it on the palm of my hand and to never let go but was too flimsy to defy its vigor. It left me anguish and pain but still there lingered hope. to my dismay, a realization hit me like a bolt of lightning. Stunned, i stood motionless and admitted defeat with gallantry. Vowed to never again delve the pages of this book. for it had brought me spate and i would be forever haunted by its eminence. that what it had would no longer be reopened and would be stashed away to the depths of the abyss of oblivion.

i wrote this in memory of you, we have once joked to write this book together as a testament of our bond that only both of us understood its existence. you know who you are and you know well what went wrong. i wish you all the happiness and as what we’ve agreed we would be good friends forever.

                                                                                                                -written October 2007

"The Philippine Political System"

When you read the political history of this nation including the heroisms of Aquino or Rizal and the courage of a wife to run against a powerful dictator, you always found yourself in awe of the power the people held in their hands.

The country had been thru a lot in the hands of colonizers and how it struggled to achieve independence.

Alas! Democracy swept us.

Many are hungry for seats of power. Sad to realize that when you hold a seat in the Philippine Government and you are attached to a string of parties with selfish agendas and interests, you become UNTOUCHABLE!

That is why, when a few cries out for justice and injustice they despondently found that their sentiments are aired on the streets instead in the proper courts were issues and concerns are supposed to be heard. And sad to say, those who attempt to prosecute a corruptor and scoundrels are the ones prosecuted and denied of due process.  While the opposite are the ones chanting proudly in the media boxes of interest exclaiming about the protesters breaking law and order and what else but the Constitution, as they say.

Thus, doing other means to be heard and may one day be charted to history as hero.

And the Manila Peninsula may just become one of the place where heroic acts are made. MOre so could be added to our history books as one of the place where sentiments for good, honest and clean governance were heard and bummed and bombed out by the bootlickers of government with sly force.  Also placing the freedom of the press and right of the press in great intimidation.